Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year!

So, I am in atlanta, bringing in the new year :)

I have been on holiday's in the florida keys, and therefore, MIA. but, have been loving it. Will update soon, with photos as well!

I hope all of you had a great holiday season!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

race schedule

so, starting to think of events for 2009. these are a few of them. it will continue to be added too, me thinks.

Vancouver 1st half. Sunday, Febuary 15th. entry is full, but i have heard that people sell their entry slots. will try to get one. if not, then i will default to the historic 1/2 in Langley, on the same day.

UBC Triathlon, Olympic Distance. March 8th.

New Orleans 70.3. April 5th. WOOOOOOTTTTT!

Vancouver Sun Run. April 19th. 10km :)

Ride to conquer Cancer. June 19th-21st, Vancouver to Seattle.

Ragbrai 2009. July 19th-21st. Iowa. maybe? it might be a good chance for me to get out there this year!

christmas beauties

so, on saturday night, i went to our christmas party for work. try putting fitness professionals into high heels, on a boat through false creek, wearing dresses. add snow and wine and too much food. this is what you get.

me and my roommate, erika.
the mandatory by the christmas wreath photo!

me and hot mama, joanna, and her baby in her belly....

The girls from the front desk, and their favourite trainer!
This was the first time that carolyn (in the middle) has ever seen snow. she is from Perth. and, i made her walk outside in tiny little heels.

can't forget riding african style with too many people in a car! joanna drove. we made the pregnant lady drive in the snow. safety first ;)

and, two photos from being up all night long in seattle, with Sam and Gretchen. I was pretty stoked to see them, and am more impressed that after only getting about 5 hours sleep in the 48 hrs previous to this, we do not look so bad! friends, let's do that again sometime :)

Saturday, December 13, 2008

christmas spirit

so, reasons i am happy today:
  • there is snow on the north shore mountains. finally!!!!
  • a client gave me 10 pounds of frozen blueberries.
  • i have a fancy boat party tonight, courtesy of body and soul. and, i have a smokin' hot dress.
  • there are so many people out there right now driving around with christmas trees on the tops of their cars. I almost bought one today, and biked with it attached to my backpack. but, i wasn't sure that would be safe.
  • i got amazing christmas cards in the mail yesterday to send out to friends. Petara Panabaker has amazing art. i highly suggest you order some.
  • i got, from my aunt, a recipe for my granny's shortbread cookies. I don't think that i have had some of those since before she died, about 5 years ago. they are amazing!!! :)
    1 pound butter
    1/2 cup white suger (berry sugar is you have it), 1/2 cup brown sugar, well packed
    4 cups of flour
    pinch of salt
    roll out, cut, cook 20 minutes @ 300 degrees F.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

when your waterproofs don't even keep you dry...

that was today. my day, thus far: wake up 6:30. school work and breakfast. depart 8:15, on bike, with "sports rain jacket" (from my WVU rowing days), and one pair of long spandex underneath capri-length cannondale cycling bib short things, wool socks, wool short sleeve, polyester long sleeve, and "waterproof" cycling gloves. go to a doctor's appt, 8:45. go to coffee with erik, 9:15. gracefully accept a pair of cycling booties. go on bike ride, 10:30ish. return home, 11:45, and run into shower. eat lunch. do school work (or, blog!).

now, here in vancouver, we get rain in the winter.

and, when i say rain, i mean that a low pressure front places itself directly above the city, and remains there until about april or may. however, luckly enough though, we have not had a lot of rain this fall.

there have been damp rides, but not soaking rides. today, though, i was reminded of what it is going to be to train through the winter. Today, i thought "hmmmm, maybe fenders are a good idea." today was a day that the bike does not get dirty, because it is like it has just been through a carwash, and is sparkly clean from the rain and water on the streets. today is a day when you forget to hydrate while riding, because it seems sufficient just to lick your lips from the water dripping down your face, or stick out your tounge, and catch raindrops. today is a day where i know that i wouldn't do this, unless i loved it. i love it. and, even though i felt like a cat that was just tossed into a bathtub, i was not cold, nor was i upset (even though i had a grimice on my face the whole time... i think that is just a reflection of the water hitting it!). it was kinda fun. except when you get that car that drives through a puddle, just beside you. that, i don't like.

strange things that have happened to me this past weekend....

  • i went to seattle, to stay up all night long with my friends' Sam and Gretchen. They were on thier way from alaska, to hawaii. so, i rented a car. within 3 hours of renting the car, i got a parking ticket, directly outside of my work... not because i was illegally parked. but, because i was in a two hour parking zone. i had been there approx. 2 hours, 15 mintues. i ran out and the conversation went like this: "i have not been parked here more than 2 hours." "yes you have." "no i haven't, i moved the car." "no you didn't, we chalked your tires." "sure i did [big lie, i hadn't], i got in the car, drove it around the block, and parked it again." "it doesn't work that way." "arrrrrghhhhh." can i blame anyone other than myself? of course not. and, it was only 30$. but, really. they *never* come to that park of the block. and, of course it would be a carless one who gets a parking ticket.
  • i think the customs officer was hitting on me. i should have told him that we should go out for coffee, 'cause he could have asked more questions there. it was strange. i didn't even have my bike with me, but he kept on with questions such as "what type of bike to you have? do you have it with you? why not? who's car is this? why are you renting a car? if you don't own one, why not?" blah blah blah. but, it was pretty funny, because it seemed like we were both trying to out wit eachother, by asking and responding quicker than the other.
  • upon my return, running a little late, i got caught up in the "Santa parade." and, im not going to lie. the longer i was caught up with it (there were apparently 300 000 ppl there!), the more i felt like i was being a christmas stooge. sighhhh. i got downtown at 1pm. I arrived home at 3:45. it normally takes me 30 minutes to get home on the bus. not on sunday!
  • saw "Rachel getting married." it was funny, cause it wasnt funny. but, quite good, none the less. i like it that no family is normal.
  • i found out that my mum likes to refer to me as "my daughter who does many things including these extraordinary long races" that just makes me laugh. extraordinary long races :)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

our canadian politics :)

Dear neighbour, about what's going on in Canada

as well, i would like to introduce you to the personality in the world that has the ability to stop all people, dead in their tracks. for real. no one will move, no one will approach. i know this, because, i encountered it tonight [which is not the first time i have encountered one recently]. i was not attacked. but, that is because i did not approach. can't they just migrate, or hibernate or something?


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Christmas boxes

So, my church (which is conveniently situated in the downtown eastside) is putting together christmas boxes for residents of the community/our neighbours. I am hoping to get together a few (and, when i say a few, i mean lots) of boxes to donate to this drive. As you know, i love the downtown eastside, and think that there are phenomenal people there, many of whom need our help. So, here are a few of the items that are suggested for the shoeboxes...

pack of cigarettes with a lighter scotch-taped ot it= nirvana!
two ensure (or other brand) of protein/meal replacement shakes
Gift card (10$) including places like:
  • Tim HOrtons (the favourite!)
  • McDonalds
  • 7/11 stores
  • Starbucks
  • A&W
  • Army and Navy
Phone Cards (10$) for family calls
Two granola bars (favourite is Nature Valley Sweet and Salty bars)
a new paperback novel
thermal gloves (avail at Army and Navy). Cost about 5$ but are very warm: they look small, but expand to fit most hands
wollen hats.

please no products like mouthwash or aftershave that contain alcohol...

let me know if you want to help!!! :) also, if you want to forward this to your friends, that would be great. Give me a message if you want more information :)

Monday, December 1, 2008

better to have loved, and lost?

Today, i wrote a facebook message to someone who i have not spoken to in 5 Years. wasn't sure if it was going to be welcome... probably will not be. but, anyhow. it said this:

I know that this message will probably be unexpected, and a bit of a surprise... and, i don't really know how it will be taken. Nevertheless, I'm not so much in the business these days wanting to do something, then overanalyzing what will come of it, and therefore, not doing it. so, facebook message it is.

I hope that you and (.insert name here.) are doing fantastic... that life, marriage and adventures are treating you well. The other day i realized that i remember that your birthday is coming up in the beginning of December, so i looked you up on facebook. I don't actually remember when it is (or even what you are turning... 23, 24?!?!)... but *Happy Birthday!* May you continue to find your trail, with growth and abundant blessings in this next year. :Cheers:


and, in all honesty i am not going to be caught up on if i get a response or not. 'cause it is not worth the head time [i wonder if it was even worth the 30 seconds to write the message?], nor was it a message to "get back in contact." nonetheless. It is done, and how it is handled is not my business :) It would be nice to have a hello, though. And, i all i hope is that it was taken well, and it was seen as a kind gesture.

new week, new goals

so, i have been sleeping kinda funny recently. sometimes, i experience "restless leg syndrome," or, at least that is what i think it is. It has not happened for about 4 months or so, but in the last couple nights, it has happened again. i hate it. it keeps me awake when i want to sleep... you would think that since my legs are moving enough during the day, that they would want to stop moving for the 8 hours that i am in bed... sigh.

so, goal #1 for this week: make sure that I am in bed by 10:15 every night, and closing my eyes by 10:30.

I have been eating more and more "primal" recently, and I feel great. I love it, and i feel healthy, and am getting leaner (this weekend, i noticed nice little dimples on my stomach. not fat dimples, but definition dimples... wooT!). however, i have found (especially in this last week), that i am prone to (for lack of a better word) binge eating. thursday was ridiculous. it consisted of thinking about ice cream all day long, until 3pm, when i ate pie and icecream, and it was later followed by brownies and icecream and chocolate covered espresso beans. yes, i did feel a little unwell, and no, i am not in the habit of "regretting anything i eat." i loved it, and i would probably do it again... which is the problem. saturday night/ sunday was better, but not great. so, i am back on the bandwagon today. i made myself a curry-potato lentil soup for lunches this week, which i am pretty excited about. but, i gotta learn to control the binges.

so, that leads to goal #2: no binge eating, and only one cup of coffee a day. if i feel like i want a warm drink in the afternoon, to drink tea. continue to be conscienctious about limiting my sweets intake, and my grains intake.

meanwhile. i am lusting after bikes. i think i have narrowed it down to two that i would really really like to have... now it will depend on the ride, how it feels, and also (of course) if i can logistically afford it. Anyone what to contribute to the fund as a christmas gift?! (ahem. mum? dad?)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

"my words are falling short...

and there's so much i want to say..."

but maybe not the right words to express. funny how that works, hey? (ps, i love that song. maybe one of the best lyrics ever exist in it: "it feels like lightning running through my veins, every time i look at you..."

today is thanksgiving. not for me. nor for many of the people around me. but for "all y'all" down there, i hope you had a fantastic day. Today was the first day since the year 2000 that I have not celebrated with you. so, it has indeed made me miss it a bit. a few things i thankful for: i am thankful for my friends. both ones who are close, and ones who are far. i am thankful for goals. they get me to wake up in the morning. i am thankful that i live in a country that i do not feel like i am going to wake up one day, and be bombed. and, for people who may live in countries like that, i hope that the world changes so that you do not ever have to feel that. and, for those of you who are scared... may you have peace. i am thankful that i have a job, and that i am educated. this puts me ahead of a lot of people in the world. but, not greater than those people. i am thankful for 'cause those things can hold the world together, if they are properly upheld.

so, i have started getting my applications together for school next year. i will apply for 4 programs. 3 locally, one in Montreal. I hope i get into montreal. not cause i want to leave, but because i think it is the best program possible for me. but, here they are:
4-yrs B.ScN at Trinity Western
2-yrs B.ScN at University of British Columbia
2-yrs MPH at Simon Fraser University
3-yrs MScN at McGill
and, im not going to lie. I looked into other programs, that are far away from vancouver. I feel like i have itchy feet a bit, but i know i love it here, and i love being here, and i need to stay here for a while, to continue to establish myself, and root myself, and find my foundation. but, i think i need a shift in paragdigm.

i think i need to get back to my passions. i need to be closer to the underpriviledged, and marginalized. i need to be reminded that although I am enjoying working with the population that I am working with, that it is not where i want to stay.... but sometimes that scares me, because it leaves a lot of things open. so, i am looking. looking for something that might be suitable. and, that is kinda exciting, but also will probably mean taking a blind step forward... which, sometimes can be uncomfortable.

meanwhile, i got in the pool again for the first two times this week, after a 6-week (or so) hiatus. oh man. on monday night, while sleeping, could i ever feel my lats. ridiculous. but, it was pretty funny... while in the pool all i could helf but think was "damn. all i feel like i am doing is flapping my arms, and getting no where fast." i didn't last more than about 40minutes. and, last sunday, it was a beautiful day. i was supposed to do a "90-minute ride." it ended up being about 2 hrs hardish, and another 30minutes just riding along (JRA!) i couldn't get myself to stop. except at the end, and i went by solly's for a yummy yummy cinnamon bun. i would ahve to argue that they are the best ones in this city...

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Fall Classic Half-marathon race report.

so, half marathoning has come, and gone. I raced this morning, and, i am not going to lie. it was fantastic. tremendous. just challenging enough, but not wrecking. fresh. filled with good solid energy. great food at the end. a great way to realize the fall goal of "not hating running" was achieved. fun.

(i would like to make note that i have never done a 70.3 triathlon. this shirt is a bit of a lie. i did the relay on this one. so, i got a shirt, cause we paid the entry fee ;) )

i think the text message that i sent to my friends this morning to have them send me good leg energy helped. :) long and strong. long and strong. we used to say that with rowing, and yet it is so applicable with running as well. keep those legs moving long and strong. as well, in rowing, during my last year, our coxswain (Laura) gave each of us in the V8+ a specific word that she would say to us. mine was "relentless." i have kept that little piece of paper stuck on my tack board ever since. and, i thought about that this morning. what a strong word. an empowering word.

the weather was perfect, and i enjoyed the course. mostly flat, with some small, rolling steady inclines and declines. the weather a perfect, slightly overcast approximently 10-13 degrees C. cold enough to not overheat, warm enough to be in shorts and a t-shirt. i even got to see parts of my university campus that i have never seen before!!! i think that i didn't warm up much, but not sure if it really mattered all that much....

The results are not up yet, but i know that I ran a personal best. the clock time was about 1:47, and i started about mid-pack, so i am guesstimating about a 1:46... approx 8 minutes faster than the only other one i have done, a year and a half ago. I did not walk at all, except 10 steps through each of the water zones. and, also, the fact that i felt lighter. leaner. was pretty nice too. today, i felt like i could take on the world. today, i did not question if i have bitten off too much with entering a 70.3. today, it was nice to see people with the ironman tattoo. oh those ironmen and women... i think that they are pretty remarkable creatures.

a funny thing of note was when i tried to make a joke to another runner when the lead pack went by on the out and back part of the race. there was one leader, and a chase of about 10 runners. of that 10 runners, i would say that 6 of them were not white. so, i said "hum. looks like to win races like this, we need to change our ethnicity. ha ha!" apparently, the lady didn't think it was all that funny. she responded with a dry: "or maybe we just need to train as hard as they do."

coy. very coy. apparently, when people are running 1/2 marathons, the sense of humour goes down the drain ;)

and, today, there was a quote on the back of a runner's shirt that made me say "hummmm. i like that." something that gave me a little to think about during the run. it said something to the effect of:

you know who you are. and you know what you are capable of.

oookay, here are some numbers.  chip time was 1:46.33 (5:o4/km split).  Clock time 1:47:09.  Overall rank: 151/929.   female rank: 86/507.    women 20-29 rank:34/153.   

i just hope that thought continues to evolve in my life. i want to continue to discover who i am. i want to continue to know who i am right now. and, i want to continue to exapand on what i am capable of. and, lastly, i want to help other people do that. help them discover themselves, and realize that they are capable of more than they might think they are. :)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

fall classic run and nutrition...

So, all of a sudden it has creeped up on me... (is creeped a word!?!?)

that, on sunday, I am running a 1/2 marathon. it will be the second time that I have done a 1/2 in my life. the first one, was a mostly downhill run from the valley above the dead sea, to the lowest place on earth, for the Dead Sea Marathon in April 2007. Yeppers, the feet were burning by the end, and there were camels on the side of the road. yes, indeed, i travelled to Jordan (with one of my best friends, Zach), and ran a 1/2 marathon. It was amazing. this is at the carb loading party, and then at the pool post race :)

I went for a (approx 10km) run today.  I think the wind was blowing about 10 million km an hour, and it felt impossible to run. but, not only that, but my legs felt like bricks (the first 3km, my feet couldn't stop clumping on the pavement), and  they are sore (from what?!).  so ,the run turned into a walk-run.  mentally, that helped.  but strange.  i don't quite understand how one day, you can feel like a million bucks on a run, and then the next, you feel like crap.  anyway, it made me a little worried about sunday.  Needless to say, i think i will do a 20 minute "shuffle" tomorrow, and a spin ride on saturday.  just to keep the legs moving, but not strained.  

i am not sure i have a goal for this race. mostly, to go out, and to enjoy. enjoy the fall. enjoy that in the last couple weeks, i have not dreaded running.  enjoy that i can eat copious amounts of carbs on friday night, and all day saturday.  and, hopefully enjoy finishing below 2 hrs.  but, just for fun. cause, going "fast" is fun.  as of now, weather is meant to be 9 degrees C, and sunny.  so, pretty perfect. I just hope that it does not change.  

a couple of weeks ago, i mentioned that i was starting to watch my diet a little more.  mostly to just lean up, and be a faster racing machine.  and, it is going quite nicely.  Other than a sugar crash that happened on Halloween, and this past weekend, having a one or two too many desserts at my nieces birthday, it has been really good.  so, a few points about what i am doing recently: 
  • ordering from spud. that's right, folks.  I get organic, mostly local, groceries delivered to my door every thursday.  it is a little more expensive than a regular grocery store.  but, it makes me feel good.  not only about sustainable food sources, but also about the fact that it has drastically reduced my "Eating out" habit.  the reason being?  well, i have enough groceries in my fridge to last the week!  previously, because i commute on bike and bus, i often run out of food in my fridge, and it is a huge hassle to get some.  so, i resort to buying food in stores.  not so good
  • i am eating as "raw" as possible.  that includes ridiculously large amounts of veggies and fruits.  also, i am trying to predominately eat foods that include just one ingredient.  like nut.  or soybean. or milk. or egg. or tofu.  you get my drift.  
  • i am studying simon whitfield's eating habits ;)  thanks to impact magazine this month, simon mentioned mark's daily apple.  i have added it to my blog roll.  also, i am becoming a fan of Lara bars.  mostly because i understand what all the ingredients in each bar are.  
  • today, for the first time in my life, i made soup. it has potatoes, squash, carrots, onions, garlic, and spices in it.  and, it is yummy.  which, needless to say, kinda surprised me. 
  • trying to cut down on carbs such as muffins and baked goods. this is *Really* hard.  i love love love baked goods.
  • allow myself one day/meal/evening a week to "cheat." this normally includes a night out, or a meal with friends, or a nice dessert.  
 but needless to say, on the 21st of Oct, I was 173.5lbs.  yesterday, i was 170.  Maybe it is water.  or, maybe this is working! :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Here comes the rain again...

so, i was in edmonton this past weekend.  and, as much as it was a fantastic weekend, it feels good to be home.  I got back into vancouver yesterday at about 4:45, and went directly to my friend Audrey's, where i then went out for an hour run, and then finished the night with a potluck dinner...  it was pouring rain.  i got soaking wet.  but, there was a strange feeling of being "home."  so, here comes the rain again.  and, i guess it is not going anywhere until at least march.  ;)

hopefully though, on sunday for the 1/2 marathon, the sun will come out for at least a while. 

some photos from the weekend.  briefly, i got to edmonton, drove directly to Calgary, slept over night, and then went caving the next day in Canmore.  not going to lie.  I am more of an "above ground" adventurer, but the girls (my niece Makayla, and her "foster sister" [for lack of a better word]) had a great time, experiencing things that totally expanded comfort levels.  Then, eventually went back to edmonton, and celebrated makayla's 13th birthday.  Saw 2 friends, my sister, and my mum.  it was go go go.  but, nice to wake up to fresh snow on tuesday morning. 

me: being silly.

me, and a life long friend, Christopher Gillen.  We have known each other since birth, but only get to see eachother once in a blue moon. 

In the cave.  Me, Makayla, and Katherine.

the group of us!

getting ready!  love the suits! 

me and Makayla.  love that girl to bits and pieces. 

3 Generations.  My mum, me, and Makayla.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

so, i think i have gone nuts...

and, it made me want to throw up last night....

i entered two races in the span of two days.  

a 1/2 marathon on the 16th.

that is the one that makes me puke.  
don't ask me what inspired it, but at least the entry fee will keep me committed to it.  
i could barely sleep last night.  and, i couldn't quite determine if it was excitement, nervousness, or complete fear and questioning if i have gone nuts. ahhh! :) 

Monday, November 3, 2008

running in the dark

so, yesterday, i did this run in the dark. and, it was fantastic.

the funniest bit about it was when i was in stanley park, approaching lost lagoon, and all of a sudden, i see some white stripes coming towards me. alas, it was not the somewhat well known band, but rather a multitude of skunks. and, im saying, not one or two. i think i spotted at least 6 of the critters. let's just say that my pace picked up a bit at that point. 'cause, i wouldn't have been able to go home on the bus. and, if i even made it home, i doubt Erika (my roommate) would have let me in the house. that is right. i would have had to sleep in the garage, or in the jeep that is not being used. i would have been homeless.

the run was serene. the run contained vancouver night time lights of downtown, and a slit of a moon over the water. the run went by swans on lost lagoon. the run felt strong. the run was not mentally exhausting. the run went by lovers in the park, reminding me of how wonderful love is. the run ended with me on a bus, traveling home in spandex over long-johns, and tall-ish shorts (resulting in funny looks!). the run included times of adrenaline, when it was so dark that i could hardly make out the path in front of me.

i am really happy with how i am doing with running... mentally, things have been going fairly well. I am taking a much more relaxed view to it, but also making sure that i am "forcing" myself to do it, so that i am building mental toughness. and, it has gone well... I am for sure going to race a 1/2 marathon on Nov 16th. and, i am excited for it. it was runs like the one on sunday that made aspire for big things in my life. things like longer races, or opening businesses, or being in touch with friends, and remembering that no one else in life can make us feel good about ourselves, except for us as individuals.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

a reason, a season, or a lifetime

first off.  not sure if i like the new way the blog title is set up with the photo... what do you think? 

so, i got this off of a prodigal's musings. great quote from CS Lewis.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket—safe, dark, motionless, airless—it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.”

i have thought that it was quite applicable to everyone's life.  and, it hit my life, today.  love that quote.  anyway, one of my co-workers recently gave me the "rhyme" which is the title of this post.  and, it is in regard to people.  she believes that people come into your life for "a reason, a season, or a lifetime."  and, to me, that is a good word.  i recently have had to evaluate that in my life, and i believe that it is a reason, in some cases.  maybe a season, but we shall see.  and, i am glad for those reasons, cause i have experienced so much. there is nothing, nothing at all, that was wrong, or that i regret about the past 3 months.  in fact, i raise a glass of wine to it, and am extremely thankful for it.  i just need to continue to figure out what i have learnt with it.  

as well, i wanted to post a few of photos from the fall. these are taken when a good friend from college, Katelyn Jones, came to squamish to climb, in mid-september. I took them up my favourite local torture hike, the grouse grind. Thanks KJ, for the photos of the day! come and visit anytime.  I will hold your down hostage until then... ;) 

love this photo.  the timberwolf at the refuge at the bottom of the mountain...

Yay!  Done and done!!! 

Stoked to be done, and on the 5$ tram ride down the mountain.

At the top of the grind.  Did it in about an hour.  pretty good time for first timers... 

these little chipmunks are gutsy!!!!  
This was post-hike.  making blackberry margaritas.  they failed miserably, as you might be able to tell...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

UBC apple festival

so, this past sunday was fantastic. i love the fall. and, what a perfect thing to do, other than spend time with friends, and do fall activities like "Apple festivals"? these are some photos from the event, which i went to with my friend and co-worker, Joanna. She is 6 months preggers, and her baby is due at the beginning of Feb, right on her own birthday! Hot mama! yay!

however, by the time i got there, the 10 million pounds of apples were all sold out, but i was able to do such things like:

pose by nice fall scenes with water and trees, and 
of course, apples!

jumping into random john deere like tractors: 

competing in apple peeling contests: 
overall, joanna's was longer than mine, by about 1 cm or so...
and eating things with apples in them.  like pies.  and hot apple ciders.
and taking pictures of the leaves, and the water droplets.

TERRIFIC!  (thank you joanna for the photos!)


So, this video is pretty neat.  I watched it on Simon Whitfield's blog.  i love reading other athlete's blogs.  cause, it is soooo inspirational.  it is neat to read about people doing the things that they love to do.  but, winning the ironman world championships?!!?  now that is a great feat.  and, i love how he sounds so non-chalant about it.  

for the last couple days, i have had a hard time getting out of bed, and to make myself have a productive day. all i want to do is lay under the covers all day long.   something is just wearing a little thin on me these days.  my motivation. inspiration. drive. is at quite a low right now.  

i want to run this 1/2 marathon.  not for any reason, but to give myself a sense of accomplishment this fall.  running is so hard for me.  out of the three bits of a tri, it is the one i enjoy the least.  i just think that when you have to carry 174 lbs of weight by yourself, it is hard.  and, for some reason, i find it more boring than the others.  i read recently about how easy it is to run 20 minutes a day.  and, that seems reasonable.  so, maybe that will be my goal for next week.  run at least 20 minutes a day, and get the long run(s) in.  just to give my legs the feeling.  just to get my mind through this slump.  

last night, after a wine and cheese party with some of my friends, i missed my bus by 3 minutes.  and, at the time i was going home, the bus runs every 1/2 an hour.  i sat there, in the cold for a while.  

so, i dug into my bag, and i pulled out my journal, and started writing.  

and, you know when you just write.  whatever is on your mind.  and, i wrote about connection.  and, i asked what is it that i want from connection, and what i am scared about with connection.  and, sometimes i wish i were a better writer.  a writer to whom people could find inspiration, and connection.  but, meanwhile, writing is such a great outlet.  especially when you allow yourself to be completely honest in your writing. 

 the thing about connection, is that i truely believe that you can have a connection with someone who lasts a short time, and is unexplainable, and amazing.  and, then, you move forward from there, celebrating the connection, but continuing forward with a slightly changed outlook, but pretty much the same way that you were previous.  trail angels.  but, i wonder what happens when you want that connection to last longer, and you have no idea if it will, and you don't know what to do, or how to act and react? 

what happens then? how the heck do we go forward, not knowing what to do next?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

2.5 months till the end of the year...

it shocked me today, that it is Oct 15th.  what does that mean?  i will tell you what it means.  in two short months, it will pretty much be christmas.  and, in a blink of an eye after that, it will be new years.  and, so, while recently reading an old journal entry of mine, i realized that it is time to re-look at my new years resolutions from this past january, to have a check, to see if i have accomplished them.  

so, it was on this post that i told you about my desires for the new year, and the amazing christmas break i had.  let us evaluate. 

Get back to personal journalling again. to find the extraordinary in the mundane.
  • not so bad.  not great, either though.  as of late, I have had more of a ambition to journal privately.  especially since i have had so many personal changes going on in my life.  so, this is not a fail.  but, not a total pass, either.  
Get a better grip on my finances; pay off my bicycle, and my credit card.
  • check.  done and done.  WOOT!
Travel to the eastern states. Maybe hitchhike.
  • not done.  subsituted with a trip to washington state with the rowing girls.  a trip to the eastern states though, may happen in december.
run another half marathon, and do an olympic distance tri.
  • four 10km races, and 3 olympic tris.  i would say this is almost more than that goal.  1/2 marathon? perhaps.  ask me again in 3 weeks.
Talk to makayla at least every 3 weeks.
  • big failure here.  but, i did bring her to see me in june. 
graduate from my masters. Take the MCATS, apply for medical school
  • graduation: on track to finish in Dec/Jan.  MCATS: done.  application for medicine: well. nope.  but, i am okay with that. 
Organize the youthgroup at St Johns
  • put a good effort into it.  sticking with it, and meeting with the new family minister at church tomorrow to brainstorm more ideas.
do yoga, and african drumming again.
  • check and check.  want to be more consistent with both of these though. 
Love & be open to love.
  • working on this one.  but, love is in a constant flux, right?  hard to figure this one out.  and, it makes me wonder if i will ever figure it out.  probably not.  

... i don't normally blog about politics.

but, it was election day yesterday.  I got up bright and early to go to the polling station down the block, right when it opened, at 7am.  'x'd my little circle, and proceeded on my way.  then, waited.  

and, since i am not super savvy on politics, and i do not choose to create conflict via a blog, i will stick to a few minor points that made me interested in an election that there was not anything to be excited about.  and, also, i would like to highlight the note that I am a 25 year old, attempting to live as greenly as possible, student, who is passionate about underpriviledged populations.  so, it is not all that hard to determine where my political spectrum lies, and how my vote is cast.  
  • First, why the heck did stephen harper even call an election? i think it was early.  and, the fact that we still have a minority conservative government proves to me that not much has changed over the last 2.5 years.  
  • having been away from Canada during the last 2 federal elections, I felt priviledged to go and cast my vote.  sure, i "understand" if "you haven't paid attention" or "our vote doesn't make a difference anyways, politicans are all liers." or whatnot. wait a minute.  no, i don't understand.   there is absolutely no excuse for (the lowest turn out ever) only 58% of the canadian population going out to vote....  it might be the lack of voter turn out was due to a few things.  leadership of the parties.  maybe they are not the strongest possible leaders.  the electoral system. timing of the vote. lame youth skipping out on the vote.  
all i know is that i have traveled to countries where people fight for the right to vote in a democratic, safe environment.  people die for the right to vote. and, yes, we have a lot of problems with the democracy in this country, but, it is still one of the best in the world. we have one of the best countries in the world.  so, voter apathy should not be one of the problems of democracy in our country.  if you "didn't know what party to vote for" find a website like:  it will *tell you* how to vote, if voting strategically is what you want to do.  

  • i am happy to currently live in a riding, Vancouver Kingsway, where my vote made a difference.  my riding is one that has been liberal, since 1997.  However, in the last election, when David Emerson ran as a liberal, our riding got a conservative.  2 weeks after being elected, he crossed the floor to the conservative party.  since then a "de-elect David Emerson" campaign has been running.  so, the liberals had a hard fight.  turns out that they didn't fight hard enough around here.  NDP painted the community orange, with a 35% win, over the 29% liberal vote, and 27% Torie vote.  finally, i live in a NDP riding.  
  • I would also like to make note that Edmonton-Strathcona (where i grew up) is also NDP for the first time in ages.  It has been conservative for years.  but, i wonder in the university students actually got out to make a difference.  that makes me happy.  that community needs an NDP. 

anyway, that is probably about it for now.  now, we turn to the south, and anticipate the result in the obama-mccain situation.  it could get nasty in the next few weeks, and i will be glad when it is over.  i am curious to see the voter turnout for the US.  hopefully it will be better than the canadian turnout.  

in a final note.  i am on the "leaning up" frame of mind again.  i have successfully dropped about 5-7lbs since the end of the summer.  however, it is easy to get fat over the winter.  I am hoping to be lean and fit and hot for christmas, to lead me into the spring season.  however, i don't know how to do it.  i know it seems strange for a "fitness professional" to say that. but, as a student who eats out of her house at least 2x per day, i need a strategy.  cause, there is only a limited amount of room in my backpack.  a friend of mine is doing a raw diet.  maybe a possibility?  but, that can get soooo boring.  

strategies, anyone?!  advice? tell me a "easy" way to cut calories, but still be alert enough, with enough energy, to do school work, and work work, and workouts. 

also, i do think i am going to do that 1/2 marathon on Nov 16th.  but, don't tell anyone, cause i don't want anyone to have any expectations.  i am not going for time, i am just going for distance.  

Sunday, October 12, 2008

happy thanksgiving!

i love love love thanksgiving.  and, it is tomorrow.  I celebrated last night, with friends of mine, both known and [previously] unknown, by a potluck thanksgiving dinner.  it was amazing, and so much fun.  good food, good laughs, good wine, good dessert, good people.  

and, tomorrow, I will run the Turkey trot  Gotta love throwing in a 10km race on thanksgiving morning, just for the fun of it.  and, at least there will be a man dressed up in a turkey costume.  in fact, that might be the highlight of the day.  the 13 degree, rainy forecast will definitely not be the highlight.   but, nevertheless, I am excited :) 10k's are so much fun!

so, race was great.  it was pretty funny, it reminded me of swimming in a triathlon, where aroud the corners, it get so tight, and on the straights, you try to find a line, or someone to stick behind in order not to get trampled down...  Try putting about 1700 people on a 20ft wide path, around winding corners, with small pilons in the way, and telling them to run as fast as they can.  then, throw a dog into the mix, who is trying to navigate his way with a stick, to the water. then, mix in the rain and a bit of wind, and the clouds and coldness.  it all amounts to a great start to thanksgiving day! i just about died laughing at one point about how hilarious this whole thing was.  i mean really.  don't we have better things to do with our lives?  and, can someone explain to me why i just can't get enough of racing!?

  :D  love it!

    final chip time, 52 minutes.  not so shabby for having run only about 3 times in the last 4 weeks.  the whole thing felt good, and then the 4 hours warming up in a coffee shop, and reading my book was a great way to spend a good part of the day.  

now, i am going to get all cozy again, in my bed, and finish off my book.  

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

new seasons

this is in West Virginia. the place that was created for autumn. Not my picture though.

Someone once told me that God created seasons to remind us of life. and, to remind us that in order for new life to occur, death must happen. and, as awful as that sounds, it rang true to me today.

I rode my bike through the roads of Vancouver, and noticed how much the season is changing. the air is cold. the trees are yellow and red and purple. it is raining more often. and, it is dark early. and, often, people get sad when the fall comes, because it means that the grey winter is on its way. but, i thought about the leaves, and how they have to die, in order for the new life to happen in the spring. those days when the trees turn pink with cherry blossoms, and then green. and, i gotta admit. i like the fall. i like how it is so crisp, and fresh. but, a different fresh than spring.

i think that my life is finally feeling.... well. i am not 100% sure of how to explain it. maybe finally i am starting to feel happy again. feeling like i am enjoying life. realizing that for now, death has occurred, but new life will soon arrive. a season of change. and, i am kinda excited about it. admittedly, it is hard to leave a dream behind. because change can be scary. but, there are so many things to look forward to. so many things to be in anticipation of. and, i like that. i like that a lot. and, it feels good to have PAX. finally.

edit: today, while at work, i had an interesting conversation, and also received an interesting email, from a friend of mine.

the conversation was about some fears (for lack of a better word) that i have about trying to figure out how to [re]act in the present, because of how it might impact the future. i think i tend to react to situations, with somewhat of a natural instinct, based on situations of the past. however, to me, one of the most freeing points of life will be when you acknowledge how the things of your past influence your actions and thoughts today, but they do not define who you are. in many ways, you have the power to change your situation. and, we talked about if i am a "past-dweller" or a "future-dweller." and, i think, that i am a little of both. i used to be more of a past-dweller. so, today, i was reminded of not letting things of the past define me, and to just go with it. try to resist the desire to ask questions, and know answers, or how everything will turn out.
but, sometimes that is hard. cause, i want to know. but, i suppose that is all in the excitement of figuring it out. and trying not to be scared if something doesnt work out the way you might hope it will.
and, this email. well, this is some of what it said: "The other night I asked God to speak to me in my dreams. What did I dream about? You. You were getting ready to run another race but you were exhausted and I told you that it's okay to take a break and that you couldn't save the world by running seven miles in the pouring rain. I don't know what that means. Probably nothing at all. It was just you and the fact that you run incorporated into my subconscious and probably wasn't God at all." and, you know. i think it was God. now we both just need to figure out what it means. what it means to take a break.

i think i might run a 1/2 marathon on November 16th. just for fun. and, also to achieve a new years resolution that i made for this year. i will decide after the turkey trot on monday. but, it would be a lot of running, in a short time. i would do a 4 week build up, increasing my long runs by 3km each week, finishing with a 19km on the 2nd of November, and a 15km on the 9th. then, a week long taper down to the race, and 21km on the 16th (race day). so, we will see. might actually be do-able...

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

my Mama bear

so, this past week, my mum has been in town. The last time she came to Vancouver, it was on a trip with Makayla, out for thanksgiving, 2 years ago. Needless to say, lots has changed for me in this town since then. The occasion for this trip, was that her youngest (living) sister was getting married, out in nanaimo. So, she stayed on Thursday, Friday, and Monday nights.

Time was passed with swimming, home cooked meals, meals eaten out, sushi, and movies. It was a great time to catch up, seeing that I have not seen her for about a year. Here are a few photos that she took with her camera.

My Mum, Uncle Don, Auntie Kathleen, Auntie Maureen.
i am always shocked at how similiar they all look to eachother.

My Mum, Uncle Don, and Myself, at "The flying Beaver" for Lunch.
i would like to mention, that Don has done 7 triathlons (sprint distance) this year.  to me, that is just shocking.  he also told me how he has a friend who just completed his 100th Ironman. This has been since 1988. Ridiculous.

My Mum and I outside the UBC pool, where we had a shockingly beautiful fall day today.  
I am mourning that the outdoor pool will be closed as of next friday.

Self Portrait!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

conflict of interest....

So, tomorrow night, there are 3 things that are occuring, simultaneously, that will have my attention drawn towards...

1) Canadian Party Leader debate 9pm, EST
2) Vice presidential debate, 8pm CDT
3) Grey's anatomy, episode2.  9pm PST.

#1 is entertaining because it deals with my future.  #2 is entertaining because it will be about foreign policy, and that might be laughable.  i am curious about how Palin will perform.  #3 is entertaining, because it is entertaining.  and, patrick dempsey is a hot man. ;)

today's outward bound quote of the day.  Not 100% sure that i agree with the first part, because we need to learn to believe in ourselves outside of other people's valuing us, but i still kinda like it.  especially the second bit...

"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us is something valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit. "
- E. E. Cummings

Thursday, September 25, 2008


so, when i read stuff like this, about myself, it gives me the warm fuzzies. it is nice to know that people feel that I am solid enough of an individual that can write compliments like this about me (click on image to enlarge).