Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
and it is raining.
had to deal with an almost hypothermic girl this morning.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
so, i woke up this morning, with the intention that I was going to ride my bike to rowing practice. It was a bit damp outside, but, okay. I can deal with that. but, I was still hesitant, since I have not been riding it as of late. but, today was the day that I was going to drop it off a shop. So, here we go... got on my bike, and left. cruised down the hill.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
so, robbed this off of simon whitfield's blog.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
fall sitting in the laurentians. Not so much a lake, as a swamp. but, still pretty. McGill Outdoor Club "new members" weekend.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
His kids, my cousins, are also very athletic, working in bike shops, loving cross country ski racing, and running... i have another cousin on this side of my family (my mom's side) who is a 2:59 marathon runner. so, at any rate... there is at least there are a few of my family members who appreciates my little obsession.
it is now a little later in the day, and, I just got back from a great little bike ride with my uncle, north of the city. It is amazingly beautiful out there, we started riding at about 4pm, so that equals a nice fall afternoon ride. and, since i don't have my bike here, i got to ride one of the ones they have here. it is a little ride called a cervelo. *sigh* *loooonger sigh* i have said many times that when i ride a bike, i feel like i am flying. when i ride a bike like that, i feel like i am flying, but with less effort.... ;) but, let me tell you: this is a big announcement, so listen up. apparently, Don is going to be doing a cross country bike trip next summer. so, he said that in reality, the reason he was bringing me out for a ride was to see fit, and comfort level. 'cause, apparently, if next summer, I want to use it to race on... well, i can! WOOOOOT! yeeehaw! soooooo exciting!
in other exciting news.
i think that i am in dream school. i think school is a dream. how come i have never realized before now that nursing is apparently the area that I was created for. Every time I leave some sort of clinical placement (i am in "3" right now... one at a rehab hospital, one with a older adult at a community residence, and next week, starting at a pre-natal class), i am walking on clouds. nursing hits the care, the science, the relationship, that i have been looking for my whole life in a career. and i love it. it makes me feel like i have found the exact fit.
and, that makes me happy.
so, things are looking up :)
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
recently, one of my profs declared, "remember that no matter what, no matter how your day is going, you are going home at the end of the day. Your client, most likely, is staying at the hospital."
And, to me, that might be one of the statements that will form my nursing career. remember, that you are going home. last night, I had a good "dang, i want to go home right now" thought when going to bed. and, then i sent a text message to a number of my friends [the ones who believe. in. the. power. of. prayer] to get them to pray for me, just to know that i am supported. yesterday, was a day that was frustrating in my books. a frustrating email, a frustrating meeting, and a day where everything seemed to take longer than planned.
it was raining while i was on the water, and things got picked up. my shoes... well, we are now back in montreal, and i don't know where they are.
I woke up today, knowing that it is a new day, and that it is forecast to be beautiful outside. And it is. Not to much wind, not too many clouds in the sky, beautiful sun. the type of morning that rowers like to be on the water with. the type of morning, where, if you can take your mind off other things, it will bring joy to your heart. so, I will think about today, and not about yesterday, or the day before.
it is thanksgiving this weekend, and I think I am going to try and head out to toronto to spend the weekend with my aunt, uncle and cousin. I love thanksgiving: it brings thoughts of warmth to my mind. And, i love that for the past number of years, i get to celebrate twice. once for canadian thanksgiving, and once for american. the second is kinda a tradition since being in west virginia.
i got an email from my friend this morning that made me break into tears instantly. it was an email that made me realize how much love there is in this world, and how much people will go to the line for you if you need it. to my friend who is accessing this blog via satellite access: words can't express.
i am excited about the future in triathlon. this week, i got myself i coach!!! wooooo! i have a team, i have a coach, and i am getting some goals. and, to me, that is overly exciting. fan-fricken-tastic! and, i even have a former wvu rowing teammate/current extremely close friend who is once again a teammate! yay DLS!
you are going home at the end of the day.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
so, i guess that it has been a while since i have had a fairly decent post. yesterday, was a day that was laced with annoyances, and kinda made me realize that there are so many things right now that are wearing on me.
- my student loan got screwed up. I am still waiting for the $ which was supposed to arrive in my account on the 1st of september. I have eaten through my savings with moving and "getting started in school" expenses, and I HATE that I have had to ask many people to help me out, especially my parents. I feel like virtually every day is a day that i am thinking "if i spend this 2$ on coffee, what am going to have to cut out later." or, "dang, i have to phone my automatic withdrawals, and tell them that they cannot take it out because it will bounce." I HATE that I am 26, and feel like i have to rely totally on other people. and i hate that money plays such an influence on life stress levels.
- yesterday, my bike got sick. sick enough that I am scared to ride it, because it will get worse. there is popping and grinding coming from either the bottom bracket, or the hubs. mostly when it is wet (yup, montreal is looking more like vancouver with the amount of rain yesterday). and, i know that a overhaul of that, as well as a general tune up will cost a pretty penny. and, i can't send it to my bike mechanic friend. 'cause he lives in vancouver.
- i am missing my vancouver people. although i am starting to find some people here, i miss my friends. erika. celine. brian. aud. rachel. erik. aldea. caz. my community. shaz. mineko. marc. my people.
- i am remembering what "self-directed" learning means. and, how much time/dedication a master's degree takes. there is a whole lot of knowledge that needs to enter this brain, and it feels like there is too much sometimes. that my brain isn't big enough.
- i am feeling like i have such a lack of control and lack of goals right now. in many aspects. in athletics: i don't know what i am looking towards right now. what am i working on? in nutrition: why the heck is it that despite the fact i feel like i am mostly eating well, and sticking to healthy eating, that i have to struggle with food all the time. so many people find nutrition easy to maintain. i find it hard.
but, i am not going to lie. despite the fact that there are somethings which are wearing on me, there are so many things going great in my life.
i love that two close friends have recently gotten engaged: erika, christina. and, i am very excited for them. i love love.
i am excited about what is going to happen in my life in athletics. i am going to get a coach (yay!) to help me realize, and focus my (non) goals!
i love nursing. i love that this is what i am going to do for the rest of my life. i love that i know that it fits like the proverbial glove.
i love coaching rowing. despite having to make hard decisions, and face hard situations, and every day is a learning curve, it brings me great joy. (i don't like that i still have to figure out how to get paid for it, but, non-the-less, i love giving to the community that i have gotten so much out of.)
this, to me, is hilarious, because i soooooooo don't care. but, it is definitely humourous, because i always tend to think "sigh, those 1st commenters are so lame!" and, now, i am a lame 2nd commenter. ha!