Friday, February 26, 2010

don't you wish you were on holidays?!

Beautiful beaches, dives, caves, drives, and open water swims.

(loving loving LOVING the open water swims. it is like a pool, but with sand on the bottoms, and waves to carry my non-wetsuited body along... sigh. siiiiigh.)

back to the snow tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

fun in the sun!!!

other things i like about Grand Bahama Island:
open water swimming.
sweating while going out for a run.
fish fries.
diving with sharks.
the bahamian accent.
black guys.
left hand side road driving.
just generally, being away.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

a humble life

so, with this whole team in training business, I have spent quite a bit of time just thinking about what I am doing, and why. For instance, this whole thing is a little bit of a stretch for me to say "My life is affected by blood cancer." I don't know anyone who has lymphoma, or leukemia, or hodgkins. I don't even know people who have died due to it. I know people who know people, but that is not super close to home.

But, that is okay. Beth's dad is living with leukemia. Leanna's aunt died from it. We all carry eachother. in every aspect of life.

but, in reality, what is the point!?

I guess the point is that swimming, biking, running, traveling, etc. those are all things that i love. I love doing them, and I do them frequently, and i get all the pleasure out of doing them. So, why should I do those things, only to benefit myself. I mean, we can do things in our life, that we love to do AND use those things to benefit others. I can travel to see the world and learn about cultures, but while i am traveling, I can bring kids to do a construction project on an orphanage home. I can run a 1/2 marathon to go fast and stay in shape and enjoy the outdoors, but I can also raise money for cancer research while at it.

this way, everyone benefits.
this way, it is not all about me.

and, I guess that is one of my biggest goals in life. That it is not all about me. and that I can do the things that I love to do, and benefit others while doing it. To look at the things that I do, and say, i hope someone else also gets the good outcomes from this. it is just to live humbly. live simply. live in love.

I am in a countdown. 1 exam to do. 1 clinical day. then, off to the bahamas with my mum! woooOOOoooooo :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Hello Friends!

It was so nice to hear from so many of you, following my christmas newsletter! As you read this next little letter, you might not be surprised that I am about to tell you something that involves raising money. I am very excited about it, and I would like to tell you about it. As my mum would say (and, as you may know) I love participating in "ridiculously long races." This spring, I have decided to take that passion, and do something where other people than I can be benefitted by my participation in these races. Some people think that my doing endurance races are inspirational. Families living with members who have blood cancer, make my participating look like a walk in the park.

I recently signed up for "Team in Training." You might have heard of it... It is an organization that has people participate in an endurance to raise awareness and money for research for leukemia and lymphoma. Did you know, that this spring, I am going to be running a 1/2 Marathon in the end of June. I am running, because one of my classmates (and a good friend) brought the idea up, since her dad has Leukemia. As I have gotten to know her, I have listened with her as she has told me about the journey her family has gone through in the last years. She thought that forming a TNT team might be a good idea. So, I am running for the Wiseman family, so that they may get more years. We are running as a group of Mcgill Nurses. There are 3 of us, so it allows us to encourage one another and work through everything together!!! (But, i am running a different race than the two of them.)

I would also like to invite you to join our team. I'm asking you about the possibility of sponsorship! My goal is to raise 7000$ by April 1st. Also, If you are not able to help out, could you contact any of your contacts that might be interested: Please forward this email to as many people as you can to encourage them to donate as well! You will be supporting LLSC's mission: to cure leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin's disease and myeloma, and improve the quality of life of patients and their families.

would you pledge to be:
A Miler? 1$ for each mile I run on June 19th? (13.1miles = 13.10$)
A clicker? 1$ for each kilometer that I will run on June 19th? (21km=21.00$)
A trainer? 1$ for each training Kilometer that I will run:
- 90 km (one month of training)= 90$
- 250 km (for 4 months of training)=250$
A finisher? Be there directly by getting a personal phone fall from me right from the finish line! 500$

Finally: if you know someone who has ever fought or succumed to cancer, please LET ME KNOW! if you are able to donate, I will write their name on a ribbon, and pin it to my body as I run, to HONOUR THEIR JOURNEY.

If you would like to be part of my team, please make your pledge by either:
- Filling out the attachment donation form and mailing it to me.
- Filling out the attached donation form and faxing your credit card donation directly to the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society of Canada at 514-875-2657.
- or, you can make an on-line donation by visiting my personal webpage below.

the first is my Team in training blog:
and, second is my sponsorship page:

The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society of Canada will issue you an income tax receipt for any donations of $10 and up.
On behalf of myself and all those that will benefit from your generosity, I want to thank you in advance for joining the team and taking part in this very worthy cause!
You can phone me at 514.... or email me if you would like more information.

This year:
- 15,010 Canadians will be diagnosed with a blood cancer this year; or one person every 35 minutes.
- 7,210 Canadians will die from a blood cancer, or one person every 73 minutes.

Today is valentines day

As you probably know already :)

since i am very much single, this day is a normal day in my life. I have had, in the past, a tradition with one of my good teammates (both rowing, an d now triathlon!) to do a fun little gift exchange. but, she lives in georgia. so, no gift exchange.

but, i thought that i would just write a list of names of people that i really love. these people are the best people in the world, and i don't get to see them a lot.

my family: mum dad rebecca leigh makayla.
My best friends. the best people in the world: zach christina kevin sam celine
my teammates. donna. meg. cait. risha. LC. kirst.
segue stud's: stephen. jessie. melissa. sharon. bethany. robert lee. those crazy brits and the welshman.
and random others: terry L. terry P. Audrey. bri. kristin. my "non-family families."

Even though i don't get to see you or talk to you as often as I would like, doesn't mean that I don't still love you.

thank you for today's video, and photo credits!

Friday, February 12, 2010

aready a downer for the games.

So sad to hear about the death of the olympic luger. Anyone who makes "fun" of "tobogganing" being an olympic sport needs to be quiet just about now. and remember that this was a life. and a life from a country that probably does not do a lot for high class athletes. a life of a son, a citizen and a world class athlete. May light perpetual shine upon him, and may he rest in peace.

other news:
  • sooooo busy this week. pathology exam, presentation on Tuberculosis, clinicals.
  • Bahamas with my mum in one week! woooOOOOoooo
  • got my splish grab bag suits today. 2 for 40$ I was worried that they might be ugly, but I got these beautiful hawaii themed suits!!! :D
  • started my fundraising for TEAM IN TRAINING! and, also training with the group. it is so nice to go running with other people! check out our McGill Nurses Run a Race blog. I am trying to raise 7000$ by april 1st. Do you, or anyone you know, what to help out? what about the company you work for? do they do charitable donations?!
  • I am excited to watch the opening ceremonies tonight.
  • I miss Vancouver. I miss my friends. I recently saw this video, and it is soooo beautiful. for some reason, I can't seem to embed it, but click on the link.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

it is all about terminology...

I slept in till 9am this morning :D my body originally woke me up at 7, but I don't have to be anywhere until 11. And, I can workout this afternoon. oh sleep ins and french press coffee and egg scrambles during a leisurely breakfast. bliss!

last week was a funny week for me in terms of training, and all things tri.
  • I had a day early in the week where i was having "a fat day" and i weighed myself, and I was up 4 pounds. or something shocking like that. but, less than a week prior, i had weighed myself at normal. and, it wasn't like I have been mcdonald's or something all weekend long. it made no sense to me, and I wonder how that happens. i have no idea what causes your weight to flutuate like that.
  • i entered two races. yessss! so excited about mooseman. since then, it seems like i am meeting someone every second day who has competed in it.
  • I did my first training run with team in training and, ran with the "marathon" group, rather than the 1/2 group. b/c mary has me on a plan. and, i will stick to that plan. and the plan was to run for an hour. not 4km. you will notice that on the top left corner, I have 2 links. one is a blog for the girls in my school who are doing this race. the other: my sponsorship page. Please take the time to look at both, and to donate some money. also, please take the time to link my fundraising page to your blog. I need all the help I can get. will you help by getting people that you know to donate to the Leukemia and Lymphoma society!?
  • lost my HRM strap. but, thankfully I have an amazing teammate who has an extra, and will get it to me.
  • i convinced one of my friends to train for a tri. exciting!
  • on friday, I was sooooo extremely low motivation. one of those days where you come home, you are tired and hungry. (it's friday!!!) i ate crap (a piece of cake), then had a nap for an hour. that does not play nice for then needing to bike for an hour. it seemed as if I tried everything I could, so that I would not have to bike. but... as always. once I got going, it was so nice.
a year and a half ago, when i was getting ready for my first tri ever, and even after my 3rd tri, I always had a hard time calling myself a triathlete. sure, I was competing in them. i even was winning my category. but, i wasn't calling myself a triathlete... what i would say is "i do triathlons." i mean, you can go dancing, but you wouldn't consider yourself a dancer. I have recently found myself saying "i am a triathlete." and, i think what changed, is the moment that you put consistent money, and time, and make something a priority is the moment that you become "something." it is the moment that when you wake up from sleep, you think "hmmm, what am i going to do today, which will make me more likely to succeed in doing _______." fill in whatever you love to do. triathlon. school. career. travel.

anyway. i am a triathlete. (i think) and i am proud of that.

in the past couple days I have also had the opportunity to look back at some of the decisions and relationships in my life, and evaluate where i am today. one of those conversations was with a doctor, who i was following during my stage on thursday. the question was "so, why didn't you pursue medical school." to say "i fail when i write the MCAT" or "i didn't want to commit another 8 years of my life to school" or "i wanted to move on with life" or "i am not quite sure i like the way most MDs are taught, and practice" didn't quite seem appropriate. (despite them being true parts of the reason.)

but mostly, it was because i realized that the things i wanted to do as a MD, i can do as a nurse. and... because nursing is soooo much more about the relationship.
but, that doesn't mean that sometimes, i think that being a doctor would've been *really* cool. but, i think that is because part of me likes the status that comes with being a Doc. and, i don't want that to be a motivator behind the things i do.

i had the chance yesterday to go out for a nice long cafe talk with a friend of mine yesterday. and, any time that you talk about the deep, vulnerable parts of people's lives, it allows you to think about all the things that have made you the person you are. you remember the times of your life where you were your most vulnerable, and the people who made you like that, or the people who allowed you to be like that, and the people who walked beside you at that part of life. that part of life where it seemed like what you were going through was never going to end. and that part of your life where it seemed like no one else would understand your daily struggles.

and, i am glad for that part of my life. because it plays into who I am today... (this is part of an email that i sent:

to remember that we all have our own journey's~ that none of us are "further along" or viceversa, than another. they are just different journey's. (and, it is crazy, because sometimes I hesitate in bringing up "my real goals" in life, or absolutely everything that i do. b/c I try to do my very best to live a life which does not make people feel like I am achieving things that they wish to achieve... if i am living a life that makes people feel lesser like that, i am not at all being a person that i want to be. [I am going to be a bit "christian" here, so i can explain myself more fully... ] The reason being, is that i don't feel like the things i do, or the things i want to do in my life are out of any of my own abilities. I have been given gifts, and passions and circumstances and abilities [like we all have been given], by god, and he is the one who will finish them to completion. It is not me. i can't can't take any credit for it. )

one of the things that we learn in this journey called life, is that we have no control over others’ emotions or behavior, and we do not cause others to feel and behave the way they do... other people are responsible for their feelings and behavior just as we are for ours. it is that whole being held captive feeling, and taking care of our path forward.

i guess that we are all in this continual stage of learning. we are lifetime learners. and, at different parts of our lives, we will all go through different lessons that teach us different things. and, it is very important to identify those things. sometimes, though, figuring it out at the time that you are experiencing it, is hard.

my rowing team is doing a erg competition today. I almost thought about competeing. but then i remembered: I HATE erg tests. why would i submit myself to that again?!!? no valid reason too. so, i will go. I will coach. and i will leave, being thankful that I don't have to do an erg test if i don't want to ;)

Friday, February 5, 2010

Team page

Hey all... So, here is my link to the blog that I am setting up for my TEAM IN TRAINING efforts.

please please please take the time to go over there. It is going to be updated frequently, and you will be able to track where we are all at in terms of our fundraising.

currently, I am at 1%. woooo! ;)

i Dare you. Click here.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

apparently, this is the week to sign up for races...

so, not only did I sign up for Mooseman yesterday, today I decided "okay. take this whole ridiculously long races hobby to a reasonable cause."

Today I signed up for "Team in Training." I am going to spend the next 5 months raising money for the leukemia and lymphoma society.

I am going to be running a 1/2 Marathon in the end of june (as long as i reach my goal of 7000$). I am running, because a classmate and friend (the one i went skiing with recently!) brought it up, as her dad has Leukemia. she thought it might be a good idea, and it just got rolling. so... here is my pitch, and I will make it lots of times! don't hesitate. I need you to donate 5$. or 100$. or 500$. whatever you can.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


so, four months and 3 days. that is when I will be racing:

registered today. kinda on accident. but, was planning on it, so it just took me a bit as a surprise, due to the suddenness of it.

wooooOOOOOooooo. excited!

i am having a few dilemmas in my life right now. and, it is frustrating.
i am also longing for africa. my heart ached this morning. and, i find it interesting that it goes in 4-year rotations.
had a mid-term tonight. i think it went well. i can't believe it is that season already. yikes.
i am thankful for friends who let me vent and let me be totally myself.