I am at home sick today, after sleeping for 12 hrs last night. I have been fighting a chest cold, which is not as bad as the plague that hit me in january, but certainly not fun. I hate the ongoing debate that happens in your head when sick: stay home, or go to work? Do a bit of exercise, or relax? Only eat ice-cream, or cook food?
That's the kind of day it is. So far, I have decided: staying home, relaxing, a bit of cooking. It sure is boring being home all day.
At the beginning of March, I started back at Primary Outreach Services as an outreach nurse on the Shelter team. Honestly, I was unsure about what it would feel like to return; being in Public Health for 8 months really helped me define what I like about public health, and what were the areas of practice that I did not love about that position. That was the same way I felt about returning to outreach nursing. I know that there are a TON of things I love, and a few things that I was not looking forward to.
Being back for the past week and a half has been great. I love the work, the clients, and being outside in the neighbourhood. However, of course, there are reasons as to why I originally left the position for a while, and why I needed a break. I understand how easy it is to "burn out" in a complex role such as outreach nursing, and dynamics that exist within healthcare surrounding marginalized and complex client populations. It's not easy work, that's for sure.
I am happy to be back, and I am anticipating the coming weeks as I re-integrate into my role on the team. I think there is still lots to learn, and ways to build the role again. I am excited to see how that happens, and seeing where it goes.