overwhelmed with life

this week has seemed awful, and tonight, i was just upset with people.

first of all, you would think, that with 2 extended health care plans, that the following things would be covered, or at least some of it:

~eye glasses

~physiotherapy

~ambulance

~massage therapy

in total, those things cost approximantly 900$.  how much did i get back?  35.  35 dollars.  what the hell!?  damn bureaucracy! it really isn't helping someone who does not have a high income, but is struggling to live, contribute to society, and be educated.  arrrgh. i am so upset about that.  i know it is only money, but really.  i shouldn't  have to pay 400$ for a damn 7 block ambulance ride.

and, i lost my phone.  which cost another 100$.  

and, i am stressed about my presentation on wednesday. I think and know that i am prepared, but after my presentation last thursday, i felt raked over the coals, even though i got positive feedback.  i don't want that to happen again.  

and, finally, i am over analyzing life, and relationships.  the ones that i have, the ones that i don't have, and the ones that i wish i had.  the people that influence the choices that i make.  the people who shouldn't have influence over the choices i make, but do.  the people i don't actually know in real life, but think i should.  the fleeting encounters that make me realize that that i sometimes don't have control.  

and, africa is making me homesick again.  it has been too long. 

and, in last note.  I am running the pacific spirit 10k trail run. I am fundraising for it. it goes towards awareness/research on Dementia.  You can see my sponsor page at the following address:

www.tapestryfoundation.ca/run_sponsor.shtml

look up my name.  Amelia Payne. in case you forgot.