dreaming over the ocean

Today I sent out two emails.  One to 3 people, the other to hundreds.  If you are reading this, you may have received one of them.  I sent out both emails, then I went out to a movie with my love.  On my way home, i was thinking about the butterflies of uncertainty that I was experiencing in my stomach.  So, we talked about it. (and ps:if you go a see Thor 2, stay until the end of the credits.  its worth it.) The first email included a request of people who may make for a professional and career mentor. The second was a email contact list clean up, but also a request for people to buy gift cards for Warm Heart Initiatives.   And, what I find curious, is that despite these two topics being super positive things, and two topics that I believe are important, it still makes me have a sense of nervousness in sending them.  Because, despite being things that lead to good outcomes, sometimes it feels that I can be a burden if I ask other people to...

HURRAH!  IT IS 2012! I celebrated the new year by taking a ferry on New Year's eve, from Victoria to Vancouver (i know, amazing, right?  but... it was only 5% full, which is shocking...).  I have been in Van-city since then, and will be returning to montreal on Friday.   Coming back to canada has been better than I thought it would go.  Only about 2 break-down-and-cry moments.  I think, that the reason why it has been easier than planned is that I have been able to spend time with my beloved, and also his family~  his parents live part time in Laos, which makes talking about international-work & living & differences in cultural aspects very easy.  nice to transition with.  also, it has been filled with fun things.  Like going to the Kinsol Trestle.    and going on my first bike ride since august 20th (um... can we say sore butt and legs and back and hands?).  and drinking good coffee and ...

So, this is a bit of a topic that i have wanted to write about for a bit of a time, but, i got to thinking about it a bit more this weekend, which kinda prompts a new post.... but, before we start that. this week is a sweet sweet recovery week. Today, in fact i have NO workout scheduled. Shocking. First day in a LONG time that i have not exercised. and, i am SO ready for the recovery week. My long workouts this weekend were hard. and, i felt my body having a challenging time with them. But, alas. i know that come the summer, I am going to appreciate the work that has been put in now. My coach, Mary , at train-this, knows what she is doing. and i like to believe that what she is doing is going to make me faster. so, this past weeks numbers: Swim: 2hrs 4800m Bike: 6hrs 15 min run: 4hr 32 min strength+yoga: 1hr30 total: 14hr 17 min SO, let's start off with why i was thinking about this particular subject. I did not have a all together "productive" weekend, in te...

this is in West Virginia. the place that was created for autumn. Not my picture though. Someone once told me that God created seasons to remind us of life. and, to remind us that in order for new life to occur, death must happen. and, as awful as that sounds, it rang true to me today. I rode my bike through the roads of Vancouver, and noticed how much the season is changing. the air is cold. the trees are yellow and red and purple. it is raining more often. and, it is dark early. and, often, people get sad when the fall comes, because it means that the grey winter is on its way. but, i thought about the leaves, and how they have to die, in order for the new life to happen in the spring. those days when the trees turn pink with cherry blossoms, and then green. and, i gotta admit. i like the fall. i like how it is so crisp, and fresh. but, a different fresh than spring. i think that my life is finally feeling.... well. i am not 100% sure of how to explain it. maybe finally i am startin...

A year and a half ago, my brother Leigh (who is 8 years older than me) turned up on my doorstep and stayed for 3 weeks.  I had not seen him for about 3 years, and since then, I have had not heard from him.  He was more than welcome to stay, and i wish he would do it more often. it was nice to have conversations with him, and hear his perspectives on life. i do wish that i knew where he was, and that i could see him more often in my life.  however, most of the conversations we had, I do not really remember.  But i do remember one thing that he said to me.   he told me that if i thought that my early 20's were going to be the point of life in which i learn. and change. and grow. the most, that i am wrong .  he told me to just get ready for my mid-late 20's, because in those few years, life will have a whole new learning curve, and that i will experience more change in my life than i can anticipate.   i have been 25 for just over 2 months.   and, in the spring, when i was approac...

So, this post may seem somewhat out of character from my normal entries, but, every once and a while, something unexpected and surprising will happen. and so, I write.  and, i write right from my heart.   and, it starts with this... the other night, i was reminded of this bible verse, from a journal entry that I had written years ago... i don't quite remember the senario that I wrote it in, but, it was quite appropriate for what happened to me this past weekend: Hebrews 13:2.  Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some have unwittingly entertained angels.    There is this thought in hiking or outdoor communities that you meet "trail angels" along the way.  Strangers that you have a large connection with, and help out in one way or another along the trail, and they do the same for you.  Then, everyone just goes along on their own appropriate trail.  On Thursday, at the boarder crossing while I was riding the bus home, I met this friend.  From LA, California...

The meaning of dreams. the other night, i had a dream that i woke up from, feeling rather like "oh man, where did that come from?" it made me think about dreams, and how much significance we are supposed to place on them. I mean, they obviously come from the uttermost parts of our mind and emotions. they occur, even when we dont want them to happen. I've had dreams about people who I really care about, getting hurt. I've had dreams about people that i haven't seen or talked to in years. I've had dreams about flying. The last dream I dreamt, I was kissing a boy (nope, you don't know who it is, I can almost guarantee, so stop trying to analyze who it is), and it just seemed right. what does this mean? that something awful has happened to someone? that i miss people that don't effect my daily life? that i have a secret crush that i dont know about? Any dream analyzers out there? Yesterday, when i was running, i saw a bumper sticker. it said: ...