When I was out for my long run yesterday, in the brisk winter evening, I was thinking a little bit about dedication and follow through. I think that has been a bit of a theme recently, and it was at the front of my mind yesterday, following a bit of a "bust" with a yoga fundraiser.
I have always believed that once you commit to something, you should follow through with it. I was once having a conversation, mid-way through my first M.Sc Degree (which I loathed), and the person asked me why I was continuing doing something I was not enjoying. To me, it was because I started. I couldn't just stop... maybe it would mean defeat, maybe it would feel like I was pulling out of a commitment. I just knew I had to finish. This may not be the same for everyone, but it is for me.
In my life now, I see this theme repeating itself, over and over again. It happens in Triathlon. for Malawi. for God.
Yesterday, after a few weeks of trying to get some information out to folks, I ran a yoga fundraiser for Warm Heart Initiatives. I knew it would be tough to drum up interest. On my facebook event page, I had 3 "yes" and no maybes. At work I had a few "i'll make it if I can." Some folks gave me cash in advance, most didnt. Day of: 1 person showed up, 1 person had a mis-communication with location.
Was I disappointed? Of course.
Is it killing me? Absolutely not.
I do things that fill my heart & things that I believe in.
I feel that my commitment to seeing this project in Malawi progress, and learning more about Malawi, and letting folks in Canada know about situations in Malawi is important. I am dedicated to it, whether or not I have 1 or 12 people show up at a yoga fundraiser. That event was going to run, no matter what. Because I am committed to it.
I feel commitment to triathlon. I feel that I want to dedicate myself to racing fast & racing smart. That's why I am getting Doug Giles to coach me this year. I feel that I want to dedicate to giving back to the sport, because it gives so much to me. That's why I sit on the board of Leading Edge Triathlon Club. It is hard work & tiring, and makes me oh. so. hungry.
I feel dedication to God, and to my church. That is why we keep hosting a bi-weekly small group at our home. It may only be 3-4 people any given week, but, it is still faith and community building.
A lot of christians might say that it is "being faithful to your calling." To me, it is just follow through. If you say you are going to do it, then do it right. Put time & effort & heart into something, until you know that you should move on. But, it does not mean that all of this is really hard work. It comes with moments of disappointment, and moments of growth. It takes a lot of time commitment. I certainly get that.
One thing is for sure though, I believe it pays off. Not only for myself, but for the people around me. All I know, is that I can't wait to see what continues to happen in these three areas in my life. It's pretty darn exciting.